I have commitment issues. Serious ones.
There, I said it.
I've left so many relationships behind me to move on to something hotter, better, more exciting. Luckily, my past flings always take me back, and when I return, I return with something new to bring to the table. I'm pretty good about keeping committed relationships with the people in my life, but when it comes to what I'll call "self-exploration activities", commitment always turns out to be difficult. There are so many things I love that I feel like it's literally impossible for me to focus on all of them, even a little bit, at the same time.
If you follow either of my other two blogs, you will definitely have noticed this. Nonsense to You, I Would Suppose, my poetry blog, has been up and running for almost three years. Poetry is (was?) my passion, and for years I was filling my blog, journals, and PIPtalk Forums with all of the words I was wielding. Then, I started reading some really good books: A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini, various books on LSD, DMT, and other psychedelic drugs, Walden by Henry David Thoreau, and a few others. This, along with a newly-developed passion for experimental art, and a deeper interest in what I'm "officially" studying (interior design-- this is what fueled my extremely short-lived blog Design Remark), made it very difficult to focus all of my time on poetry, and it is plain to see.
I can probably count the amount of poems I've written in 2013 on one hand. If you had told me three years ago that in the future I would be writing less than one poem a month, I would have been deeply saddened and I wouldn't have believed you. But to my pleasant surprise, I'm okay with not writing up a storm... and I believe it's because my life is filled with so many other forms of creativity that my thirst to create, experiment, and express myself is being quenched. I've come to realize that life isn't about being a master at any one thing: you can be an amateur at many things and you'll probably be happier. It's important to constantly submit yourself to a myriad of different experiences, people, and situations in order to let parts of yourself surface that you never knew were lying dormant within you.
This blog is going to follow my journey through different experiences in art and in life. My goal is to share who I am through what I do and hopefully inspire others to search for who they are through new experiences as well.
Hopefully my commitment issues won't invade this blog... I suppose we'll see!
I will post again later today showing what I've been committed to this past week. Check back for new updates. :-)
Committed only to creativity...
-Amber
-Amber